I never thought there would be a time that I would hate diabetes more then I did at this moment....
Lovebug was getting herself ready for bed. She had just put on her pump shirt and asked me for some help because she couldn't get her site hooked back in. I hooked it back in and then this conversation followed:
Lovebug: "Mommy, will I always have to wear a pump shirt to bed?"
Me: "No, you could always wear a pump pouch like Princess does."
Lovebug: "Maybe I will try a pouch again sometime. Will I always need my insulin pump though?"
Me: "Yeah, kiddo, you will. Unless when you grow up you want to go back to shots then that will be your decision because you will be a grown up."
Lovebug: "I'm STILL going to have diabetes when I grow up? It's not going to go away?" (I wish you could have hear the really sad voice she had when she said this.)
Me: (taking deep breath) "Yes, sweetheart, you will and no, it won't go away." (gulp, and try to hold back tears)
Lovebug: (with a very sad look on her face) "I'm going to have diabetes for the rest of my life, aren't I?"
Me: (taking another deep breath and reminding myself to breathe) "Yes, unless they find a cure kiddo."
Lovebug: "That stinks!" (she gives me one of her great big bear hugs and tears stream down my face)
I could not have felt more sick at that moment. To look my daughter in the eye and tell her that yes, you will have diabetes for the rest of your life.(unless we find a cure! and I did explain that to her) Only to have her look back and me, knowing she understood. That was one of the toughest moments of my LIFE.
Lovebug was getting herself ready for bed. She had just put on her pump shirt and asked me for some help because she couldn't get her site hooked back in. I hooked it back in and then this conversation followed:
Lovebug: "Mommy, will I always have to wear a pump shirt to bed?"
Me: "No, you could always wear a pump pouch like Princess does."
Lovebug: "Maybe I will try a pouch again sometime. Will I always need my insulin pump though?"
Me: "Yeah, kiddo, you will. Unless when you grow up you want to go back to shots then that will be your decision because you will be a grown up."
Lovebug: "I'm STILL going to have diabetes when I grow up? It's not going to go away?" (I wish you could have hear the really sad voice she had when she said this.)
Me: (taking deep breath) "Yes, sweetheart, you will and no, it won't go away." (gulp, and try to hold back tears)
Lovebug: (with a very sad look on her face) "I'm going to have diabetes for the rest of my life, aren't I?"
Me: (taking another deep breath and reminding myself to breathe) "Yes, unless they find a cure kiddo."
Lovebug: "That stinks!" (she gives me one of her great big bear hugs and tears stream down my face)
I could not have felt more sick at that moment. To look my daughter in the eye and tell her that yes, you will have diabetes for the rest of your life.(unless we find a cure! and I did explain that to her) Only to have her look back and me, knowing she understood. That was one of the toughest moments of my LIFE.
