I guess that it was bound to happen sometime. The sounds and alarms that you DON'T want your kids insulin pump to make...meaning it's time for a new pump. Of all days for the her pump to "die", it died on a Holiday. A day our endo office is closed and a day when there is no shipping. Fun stuff I tell you! (sarcasm intended) Add to that the fact that Lovebug HATES shots and you have a perfect storm.
So two days on shots it is. It's going better then I thought it would. Lovebug is doing better with it then I thought she would. Miracle of miracles there! Only one problem. I think that she likes being "free" from her pump.
As Lovebug was getting ready for bed last night she realized that she didn't have to wear a pump shirt or a pump pouch to bed. She exclaimed with A LOT of excitement that she didn't have to wear either! She was downright giggly about it! You could see it in her eyes, the relief and the excitement. The freedom of being "normal". Of not being tied to a pump. It broke. my. heart.
Lovebug never complains about having a pump, never complains about the pump pouches or the pump shirts that she has to wear all the time. She always seems happy, content and easy going about it. But when I saw her get so excited about the freedom of it, I realized how much it does "bother" her. Talk about tearing this mama's heart in two.
I don't want her to have to wear a pump, but I know it's better for her. But even I have to admit that seeing her free from "the cord" was nice. Really nice. Almost made me wonder if we should go back to shots for a while, but I know she prefers the pump. Despite being attached to it all the time. It's times like this I wonder if we made the right choice of pumps for her. I wish that we could get an Omnipod and try it out...but it doesn't work that way. I can't get a "new" pump quite yet and don't have the money to pay for an upgrade only to find out she doesn't like it or it doesn't work for us. And it's not that we don't like the pump we have, we love it. So why change a good thing. Not to mention we have had enough change around here this past year!
It's so hard to see her have to deal with all this. I long for a day when she no longer has to be attached to an insulin pump or have to get numerous shots a day. Why oh why can't that day be sooner then later?
So two days on shots it is. It's going better then I thought it would. Lovebug is doing better with it then I thought she would. Miracle of miracles there! Only one problem. I think that she likes being "free" from her pump.
As Lovebug was getting ready for bed last night she realized that she didn't have to wear a pump shirt or a pump pouch to bed. She exclaimed with A LOT of excitement that she didn't have to wear either! She was downright giggly about it! You could see it in her eyes, the relief and the excitement. The freedom of being "normal". Of not being tied to a pump. It broke. my. heart.
Lovebug never complains about having a pump, never complains about the pump pouches or the pump shirts that she has to wear all the time. She always seems happy, content and easy going about it. But when I saw her get so excited about the freedom of it, I realized how much it does "bother" her. Talk about tearing this mama's heart in two.
I don't want her to have to wear a pump, but I know it's better for her. But even I have to admit that seeing her free from "the cord" was nice. Really nice. Almost made me wonder if we should go back to shots for a while, but I know she prefers the pump. Despite being attached to it all the time. It's times like this I wonder if we made the right choice of pumps for her. I wish that we could get an Omnipod and try it out...but it doesn't work that way. I can't get a "new" pump quite yet and don't have the money to pay for an upgrade only to find out she doesn't like it or it doesn't work for us. And it's not that we don't like the pump we have, we love it. So why change a good thing. Not to mention we have had enough change around here this past year!
It's so hard to see her have to deal with all this. I long for a day when she no longer has to be attached to an insulin pump or have to get numerous shots a day. Why oh why can't that day be sooner then later?
