You see, this is the nature of Diabetes. One day is never the same as the next. What works one day (week, month or hour for that matter!) may not work another day. Being a pancreas is a hard job. Especially when I am not actually a pancreas. I was created to be a wife and mother. Then the Lord, with his wonderful sense of humor, decided to put pancreas on the list too. Um, not fair and not my choice. Then again, I don't get a choice. I just get the wonderful job of trying to act and think like a pancreas 24/7. I wish someone would hand me the specifications for this job because I'm pretty sure I'm not qualified. I know that God won't give us more then we can handle, but I have to admit, there are days that I doubt that.
With that said, all the lows and high blood sugars around here are starting to give me a stomach ache. They are INSANE!! Highs and lows that I have no idea where they are coming from. A couple weeks ago I accounted them to Lovebug being on antibiotics. The antibiotics are long out of her system by now. Now my mother's intuition is telling me I might be dealing with more then just crazy blood sugar numbers.... I just went down a very large hill on a roller coaster and feel like I lost my lunch. I probably shouldn't have eaten right before that hill, but then I didn't see it coming. I rarely ever do.
So here we go on this roller coaster again. All the mental "planning" I did preparing for this just didn't work. I am still flustered and exasperated. Adding school into the mix is making it worse to. How can I tweak doses when she has to go to school??? Yikes. Just when I think I am really starting to get things down, WHAM here comes more "math" for me to figure out.
Oh well, I'll figure things out. Eventually. Then I'll have to figure them out all over again. It's just they way life with Diabetes goes. I just wish it got easier....
