Tuesday, June 1, 2010

Perfect.

"I am involved in each moment of your life. I have carefully mapped out every inch of your journey through this day, even though much of it may feel haphazard." - from Jesus Calling by Sarah Young.

As I read this this morning, I really had to remind myself of the truth of that statement.  Everything seemed to be going against me.  It started last night realizing at 8pm that I hadn't even printed out my 504 plan for the meeting this morning. Did I mention that I have a printer with no ink?  Even if I had wanted to go and buy some ink I couldn't find the cords to hook my printer up to the computer.  To top that I hadn't even found a sitter for my 2 year old, so I was taking two kids to the meeting, by myself. Wonderful. This was not the way I wanted to start my week.

My morning went a little like this...

When I woke up, I had a stomach ache. This morning of ALL mornings.  Wasn't I nervous enough already??  I really didn't need a stomach ache on top of it all. I checked my email and Facebook. I had a message from a friend about the 504 meeting.  She reminded me to be patient with the school and give them a chance.  Sigh of relief.  Why hadn't I thought of that?  I was ready to "barge" in there and tell them how it was going to be.  There is nothing better then a friend to bring you right back to "reality".

None of the girls wanted what I had decided to make for breakfast. My oldest was in a "great" mood, arguing with me every step of the way until she walked out the door.  My carpool friend had her daughter knock on the door.  She needed to leave a little early because of a field trip, great. Well, at least we were getting ready to walk out the door. Did I mention at this point I was still walking around with wet hair an hour after my shower?

Then my 2 year old INSISTED that I get her dressed. Okay, Okay.  Got Love Bug dressed and 15 minutes later, she has an accident. Seriously child, pull your pants down ALL the way, then you won't pee on them. Sheesh. Get everything around, ready to walk out the door and both girls have shoes on the wrong feet.  Wait, I smell something.  Sniff, Sniff. Crap, (no pun intended) have to change a stinky diaper.  Finally out the door, my van is in the street.  Great.  One more obstacle, really???   

I just kept saying to myself, the meeting will go well, it will go well. I am NOT going to let this morning get to me.  PLEASE Lord, let this meeting go well.

"Stay conscious of Me as you go through this day, remembering that I never leave your side." from Jesus Calling by Sarah Young.  

We started the meeting and I just went over the information I had in the plan I had come up with.  I let everyone ask questions along the way and it went really well..  The girls colored and played during the entire meeting.  They even whispered when we were talking.  Pat on the back for mommy, I must be doing something right! 

Seriously, it just amazes me what I can do when I  (really) rely on God.  I would have NEVER thought a year ago that I would have the strength to go into a meeting and do what I did today.  Then again, I NEVER would have imagined having to go through everything I have had to go through the past year either.  I have only gotten through this past year with LOTS of prayer and a huge reliance on God.  Yes, I have my bad days but I never said I was perfect.  I still get mad and cry a lot.  There are some days I even ask "Why?, Why me, why Love Bug, why my family?"  Wasn't life hard enough for us before D?

"God's way is perfect. All the Lord's promises are true. He is a shield for all who look to him for protection" 
Psalm 18:30 NLT

Perfect.

6 comments:

embracediabetes said...

Right after Ry's diagnosis, I had a sweet lady share with me a difficulty her child was going through and would go through all his life. Through her tears, she said she told the Lord, "This is not the path I would have chosen for my child." And it was as if God whispered to her, "But it's the plan I have for him. My plans are not your plans and I will make all things new and perfect." That offered me so much comfort. I like you, have my tantrum days and my brokenhearted days for my son, my family and even myself. But what a sweet reminder that God doesn't make a mistake even if it feels like He does.

Great post, Heather . . . "perfect."

Amy

Amanda said...

I'm so glad that even though your day started out kind of rough, it got better!

Hallie said...

Good for you! It's so true, isnt it? Diabetes makes us stronger. It just does. And without God, we'd be lost. Without Him, I know I could not get up and face each day and all the junk that D throws at us. But with Him - I know I can and I do. So glad it went well for you!

Meri said...

There have been many a night in my life where I have knelt down by my bed and laid it all at His feet. I couldn't do it anymore, and I gave my burdens to him. In those times I know that he carried me until I could walk again.

I'm so glad your meeting was successful! I know what a relief it is!

htimm=) said...

So glad your meeting went well! I am reading "Jesus Calling" too. It has been refreshing to my soul during the past few weeks. Beautiful post Heather!

Laura said...

So happy that the meeting went so well. All is well that ends well. :)

LinkWithin

Related Posts with Thumbnails