"I am involved in each moment of your life. I have carefully mapped out every inch of your journey through this day, even though much of it may feel haphazard." - from Jesus Calling by Sarah Young.
As I read this this morning, I really had to remind myself of the truth of that statement. Everything seemed to be going against me. It started last night realizing at 8pm that I hadn't even printed out my 504 plan for the meeting this morning. Did I mention that I have a printer with no ink? Even if I had wanted to go and buy some ink I couldn't find the cords to hook my printer up to the computer. To top that I hadn't even found a sitter for my 2 year old, so I was taking two kids to the meeting, by myself. Wonderful. This was not the way I wanted to start my week.
My morning went a little like this...
When I woke up, I had a stomach ache. This morning of ALL mornings. Wasn't I nervous enough already?? I really didn't need a stomach ache on top of it all. I checked my email and Facebook. I had a message from a friend about the 504 meeting. She reminded me to be patient with the school and give them a chance. Sigh of relief. Why hadn't I thought of that? I was ready to "barge" in there and tell them how it was going to be. There is nothing better then a friend to bring you right back to "reality".
None of the girls wanted what I had decided to make for breakfast. My oldest was in a "great" mood, arguing with me every step of the way until she walked out the door. My carpool friend had her daughter knock on the door. She needed to leave a little early because of a field trip, great. Well, at least we were getting ready to walk out the door. Did I mention at this point I was still walking around with wet hair an hour after my shower?
Then my 2 year old INSISTED that I get her dressed. Okay, Okay. Got Love Bug dressed and 15 minutes later, she has an accident. Seriously child, pull your pants down ALL the way, then you won't pee on them. Sheesh. Get everything around, ready to walk out the door and both girls have shoes on the wrong feet. Wait, I smell something. Sniff, Sniff. Crap, (no pun intended) have to change a stinky diaper. Finally out the door, my van is in the street. Great. One more obstacle, really???
I just kept saying to myself, the meeting will go well, it will go well. I am NOT going to let this morning get to me. PLEASE Lord, let this meeting go well.
"Stay conscious of Me as you go through this day, remembering that I never leave your side." from Jesus Calling by Sarah Young.
We started the meeting and I just went over the information I had in the plan I had come up with. I let everyone ask questions along the way and it went really well.. The girls colored and played during the entire meeting. They even whispered when we were talking. Pat on the back for mommy, I must be doing something right!
Seriously, it just amazes me what I can do when I (really) rely on God. I would have NEVER thought a year ago that I would have the strength to go into a meeting and do what I did today. Then again, I NEVER would have imagined having to go through everything I have had to go through the past year either. I have only gotten through this past year with LOTS of prayer and a huge reliance on God. Yes, I have my bad days but I never said I was perfect. I still get mad and cry a lot. There are some days I even ask "Why?, Why me, why Love Bug, why my family?" Wasn't life hard enough for us before D?
"God's way is perfect. All the Lord's promises are true. He is a shield for all who look to him for protection"
Psalm 18:30 NLT