It never gets easier hearing those words...some one's daughter/son was taken to the hospital today and diagnosed with Type 1 Diabetes. I heard those words yesterday, prayers for a friend of a friend who just had a child diagnosed.
That child one was of the 40 yesterday. One of the 40 children diagnosed each day with Type 1 Diabetes. I don't know what it was about hearing it yesterday but it stung more then normal. Tears came to my face. So much so I had to take a shower so my kids wouldn't see me crying.
I'm not sure why it hit me so hard yesterday. Maybe it's because we have been struggling lately. Maybe it's the time of year. I'm not sure but it is still stinging and I can't get this family off my mind. Knowing all they are going through, what they are "in for" takes me back to the day Princess was diagnosed.
I know, strange that I don't revert back to Lovebug's diagnosis, which came first but I guess Princess's was that much more poignant. Particularly because I knew exactly what to expect the second time around. I knew what we were in for, what she was going to be facing. I knew how life was going to change for her and for us. My heart breaks for this child, who is old enough to know what is going on, unlike my girls who were both diagnosed at age 3. How much different life will be for this child. What the family and child will have to deal with on a daily basis. The struggles and fears they will face together. It's all right out there for me to see, and they will see all of it soon. Just like we did with Lovebug.
That was the "bliss"( if you want to call it that) of Lovebug's diagnosis. We didn't realize right away what we were really facing. Don't get me wrong, we KNEW it was very serious, but we didn't realize the emotional and physical tole it would take on us and our entire family.
I wish I didn't know. I wish that I didn't hurt. I wish this child and family wasn't hurting right now. I wish that no one had to hurt like this. I WANT A CURE for my girls and all the other kids (and adults) out there who have to deal with this disease 24/7. Maybe someday there will be but until then we will just keep fighting for that cure and pray that it is sooner then later.