In all honesty, I'm terrified.
For the past 17 months my husband and I have been doing the majority of the diabetes care for Lovebug. I'm not so sure I am ready to give that up. I get nervous letting her stay with people who know just as much as the preschool teachers are going to know the first day of preschool, but Lovebug won't be the only child with their attention. It terrifies me that they will miss something. But, I have to let her go. I have to let Lovebug grow up as normally is possible and trust that God will take care of the rest.
It's just that with diabetes aboard I'm a little hesitant (okay a lot) to let her grow up. I don't want her to have to face the realities of this disease that I already have to face but just don't feel it in my body the way she does. I never thought I would be one of those parents who doesn't really want my kid to grow up, but with Lovebug I am. I wish that I didn't though.
It's just that I know what kind of world that she is growing up in and the challenges she faces will be many. It won't be an easy road for her. There will be people who judge her and treat her unfairly just because of her diabetes. I wish I could take it all from her and give her back a "normal" childhood. One that doesn't know what a low or high blood sugar feels like. One where she didn't know what a finger poke felt like or know what insulin or glucose tablets are.
I put the finishing touches on my 504 plan yesterday, along with the lanyard tags, cheat sheets, letter to parents and substitute sheet. I will have a link up soon on the side of the page for you to click on with all the sheets, to help those of you who need them. I meet with her teachers next week to finalize everything and train them before preschool starts the week after.