36 and double arrows down on Dexie.
Now THAT is something I never thought that I would see. If I did see I assumed I would be administering Glucagon because that would mean one of the girls was dangerously low.
Today, I saw it. One of my fears, realized, yet again. Honestly I really wish my fears would QUIT becoming reality and my hopes and dreams would become reality instead. Yep, 36 and double arrows down. You know what? There was no Glucagon, no call to 911 because of a seizure or because Lovebug had passed out. Nope none of that. WHY?
BECAUSE SHE WAS ACTING COMPLETELY NORMAL!!!
What in the world?! They only way I knew she was that low, was because of Dexie. Dexie alerted me to Lovebug's low. Dexie, not Lovebug, Dexie. As you can see I am having a hard time digesting this one. The fact that Lovebug was acting completely NORMAL while at 36 boggles my mind! How is that even possible? After I checked her and low and behold she was actually 36. Typically I would have taken a picture of this but for some reason I was SCARED. So scared I literally dropped everything and made her sit down and drink a juice pouch immediately.
I can't even begin to tell you how much that terrified me today. For a split second I thought of that what if....I let my mind go there and I freaked out. I was shaking I was so upset. I guess the whole reality of Lovebug and Princess having Diabetes was right in my face today. I didn't like it one bit. It made me very uncomfortable. I know all the bad things that can happen with diabetes. I just don't let myself go there. I can't. But for a split second (okay, maybe 2) my mind went there with the "what if's".
I thought about the "what if" we didn't have Dexie? What if I had never thought to push for a CGM? What if Dexie hadnt' been here today? Would the worst of happened? I wonder how many time Dexie has saved Lovebug's life. Literally SAVED her life and I don't even realize it?
All I can say is for Lovebug, Dexie is a godsend. I don't know where I would be without that extra piece of equipment attached to her. I'm not sure I could function if she didn't have it. At least knowing what I know now. When we first looked into getting a CGM I was VERY hesitant. Mostly because I didn't want Lovebug to carry around two separate units. I mean really, that's a lot for a 4 year old to wear around her waist. A year later, I have a entirely different outlook on the whole thing. Yes, It really looks horrible under her shirt. She looks like she is carrying around extra weight around her waist. BUT I wouldn't trade the little bit of security it brings to our family's life for ANYTHING.