All I want for Christmas

This time of year always gets me thinking.  Okay, I know....but thinking more then usual about what life should be like.  What life used to be like.  What I wish life was like.  


People are always talking about what they want for Christmas.  Of course I would LOVE an iPod or and iPhone.  I new digital camera would be nice and so would a new wardrobe.  I could use a new coat and a couple dozen pairs of shoes.  While I'm at it I might as well add a laptop in there.  


I really would LOVE all those things but now-a-days., those things just don't seem to matter as much anymore.  Not since Diabetes entered our lives.  Yeah, they may make life easier. Even get my mind of things but they don't make diabetes go away.  


I want Lovebug, and our family to be free of this disease.  I just want our family to be "normal" again.  Whatever normal is....


I want to be able to go out with my hubby. I want to be free to go away for a weekend and not worry.  (what am I saying. We haven't even been away for a weekend since Lovebug was diagnosed) 


I want to be able to make Christmas cookies and goodies and not have to tell Lovebug that she can't put her finger in the batter or eat too many cookies, because they can reek havoc on her blood sugar.  


I want to be able to go to a Christmas party or any Christmas event and not have to bring along a extra bag of supplies to keep my daughter alive.  


I want her to be able to enjoy her Christmas party at school without having to pay for it later in high blood sugars.  


I want to be able to fill her stocking with fun Christmas candy instead of toys every year.  


I want to wake up Christmas morning and just let the her eat whatever she wants. 


I want Lovebug to enjoy all the things I enjoyed about Christmas when I was a little girl.  


I want my to be able to look at Christmas pictures and not think of before and after.  


I want Lovebug to know what it is like to not have Diabetes. She won't remember her life before diabetes.  


What my hearts desires this year,  what I want  more then anything.....is a cure. 

Dream a Little Dream - Life After a Cure

What would life be like after a cure?  
 
I wouldn't WORRY  anymore that I will go upstairs and not be able to wake Love Bug up in the morning. 

I wouldn't have to listen to Love Bug cry and scream when she is LOW.

I wouldn't have to see her glassy eyes when she is HIGH.

I wouldn't have to POKE her little fingers 8-10 times a day.

I wouldn't have to look at her PUMP as a machine that keeps my baby a live.

I wouldn't feel the need to throw a mommy temper tantrum in the middle of the night when I am so FRUSTRATED I can't see straight.

I wouldn't find test strips all over my house ANYMORE.

I wouldn't have to tell Love Bug she CAN'T eat something because her sugar is to high or low.

I wouldn't have to hear Love Bug say, "I DON'T want to change my site mom, can't we do it tomorrow?"

I would be SHOUTING. (at the top of my lungs)  PRAISE THE LORD!!!!!

I would start CRYING uncontrollably.

I would be full of HOPE

I would be giddy with EXCITEMENT

I would be able to SLEEP an entire night for the first time in over a year.

I would be able to walk out of the house with JUST my purse.

I would be able to talk to people about her diagnosis without bursting out in tears of sadness but tears of JOY.

I would be able to hug Love Bug and tell her everything will be okay, and REALLY mean it.

I would be able to BURN all of her diabetes supplies, and I would throw a BIG party to do it!

I would SLEEP, a lot. 

I would be able to CELEBRATE her CURE DAY instead of dreading her diagnosis day every year. 

I would be able to BREATHE  knowing Love Bug will live a full and healthy life without the worries of this horrible disease.

I would SLEEP . (did I mention that before?)

Now, if only the DREAM was a REALITY.