Ups and Downs

 This week has been an emotional roller coaster for me. Really, everyday with D is a emotional roller coaster, but this week as been more so then normal.

I started out the week having Dexie still and leaving Love Bug for the whole day on Monday.  (see Survivor post) Then Wednesday came and Dexie quit on us. Let me tell you, seeing the warning for the sensor shut down and the time clock counting down, really unnerved me.  It was like a ticking time bomb waiting to go off.  It sucked. 

I cried when it stopped.  Dexie made me feel safer and more in control of Love Bug's blood sugar.  It's a little window into what her body is doing.  To be honest, after a week, I am shocked at what her body is doing!  She was spiking into the 400's after breakfast and I didn't even know it.  I didn't always check her between breakfast and lunch unless I suspected something was up. It's not because I didn't want to, it's because I just don't want to have to poke her poor little fingers more then is necessary.  Then she would usually be back in range by lunch time.  We started bolusing her 10-15 minutes before she eats, but that wasn't even making a difference! (at first anyway)  It turns out we needed to change her I:C ratio for breakfast along with bolusing 10 to 15 minutes before she eats.  I have brought her I:C ratio down three times now and we are starting to get somewhere, finally!  She spiked at 282 this morning, which is MUCH better then the 400's where we were at a week ago.  I would still like to see her spike no higher then 200,  but I'm sure I am in a dream world there. (I think between 200 and 240 would be perfect!) 

Then yesterday afternoon I got a call from my insurance company that Love Bug was already approved we just needed to get the paperwork to our Endocrine and have them fax over the Certificate of Medical Necessity.  They told me that once that was done they could send Dexie right out! As in we could have her by Saturday!! I was OVER. THE. MOON!!!  Let me clarify here, my insurance company uses a medical supply company and they have already have it, they just need permission from the Doctor to release it. Once they release it they overnight it to me and I get it the next day.  I was on cloud nine!!  Notice I say was....

When I went to the Endocrine to drop Dexie off this morning, the nurse told me that they had to download the data from the receiver and have the Doctor look at it.(I'm thinking that means it will be at least a couple days until I hear from them) Then someone, probably my diabetes educator, would give us a call.  So, they are dragging their feet. 

There is a chance the doctor won't let them send it to me directly if they want to do "training" with me.  Seriously, I read the manual cover to cover and watched my educator put the sensor and transmitter on Audrey.  It isn't any different then doing a site change, VERY self explanatory in my opinion, especially if you have a pump.  I'm hopeful that won't be the case.  There is a small chance I could still have it by the weekend, IF my diabetes educator is back tomorrow. That is a very BIG if.  The nurse said she thought she would be back tomorrow, but who knows.  I'm just going to figure I'll get Dexie sometime next week, and look on the bright side that one week is MUCH better then the two to three weeks I expected it to take.  If we get her sooner, it will be a blessing!  In the meantime, I am going to try to be patient, which is really hard for me to do when it comes to Love Bug and D. 

On a brighter note, I found more of Bret Michael's Trop-A-Rocka Tea at the grocery store today and that made me smile a whole bunch! A part of the sales go to the ADA, which is great! Although if I were to choose it would have been the JDRF, but ADA is the next best thing. I actually splurged and bought two cases of it (by cases I mean 6 packs, you can't buy them as singles) just in case I don't find anymore after this.  I am very addicted to the stuff, which is sad since it will only be around for a short time. I guess I will just have to stock up on it whenever I see it!

Needless to say, I will be glad to have this week over and done with!