I could probably handle it if I wasn't dealing with diabetes on top of it all. I am really at a lost for words. I don't if I should be upset, mad, angry, frustrated or whatever emotion you can think of. I have taken it to God numerous times only to get a maybe or no. Then just when I think things might be looking up I get slammed with something else. Sigh. I'm just not sure why this circumstance can't be resolved. I take one step forward to take about 20 steps back. I fight my way back and then it happens all over again.
Only this time I'm not crying or upset. I'm a little sad, I guess. My heart still hurts though. I wonder if it will always be like this?? Is this just my lot in life? I see others living pretty normal lives. Right now, mine feels anything but normal.
I think that is the end of my "pity party". I feel like I just ramble on and on about it and I have deleted numerous paragraphs so I'm just going to leave it at this. Thanks again for listening and joining me on this journey.